A Tribute

This entry is in honor of my friends.
To all of you:  I love you.
You are all so graceful, tactful, kind, generous, intelligent, wise, and beautiful.  I most definitely would not be the person I am today without you.  You've been with me through the great times, the bad times and easy times, the sad times, the fun times, and everything in between.  I am grateful for knowing each and every one of you and having you in my life.

And now for some individual shout-outs!
(And just because I say one thing about one person, doesn't mean I think any less of another!)
(And these might seem a little repetitive, but it's because you're all so amazing!)
(And enough 'ands' already!)

V-  You are so sweet and intelligent and feminine and poised.  I have always admired your femininity and kindness.  I'm so proud of you and all your accomplishments and so happy for your little family :)  Thank you for always being such a sweetheart.

L- You are so talented.  You are beautiful.  You are so smart and so genuine.  You are going places in this world and I envy everything that is YOU.  You were my lifejacket in highschool, and for that, I cannot thank you enough.  Please realize how great a human being you are.  For those out there who don't appreciate you for all that you do and all that you are, they are morons.  You were brought into this world for so many reasons.  You deserve so much.  Know this.

D-  I'm so blessed to have met you.  Your love and your personality is intoxicating.  I am SO proud of you for what you've achieved and what you WILL achieve in this world.  Just keep being your fun and amazing and intelligent self and you will go places.

J-  You have always been there for me.  Your dedication and loyalty and realness and kindness is unflappable.  You are so wise and creative and loving, and will always be one of the girls.  Go far, do what your heart tells you, stay true to yourself.  We're all here for you.

T-  "I can no other answer make but thanks, and thanks!"  Truly, from the bottom of my heart, thank you.  Thank you for your kindness.  Thank you for your genuineness.  Thank you for always backing me up and telling it to me straight!  Thank you for all the opportunities and help.  You are so driven and talented in so many ways.  You are so wise and mature, but you also know how to have a great time.

And to the rest of you:
Thank you all.  Thank you all for being in my life, being there for me.  Even if we were only friends for a short time, or had a falling out, are going through a rough patch, or are just now becoming friends, thank you.  Thank you for accepting me into your life at one point or another.  Know that you are loved and appreciated.

Selfish

I want.
I want cake.
I want chocolate.
I want happiness.
I want Freedom,
For me, for ALL!
Love!
Love, love, love, love, LOVE
For EVERYONE
For anyone who wants it!
Acceptance.
Adventure.
Life.
......
Patience.
...
Joy.
Sanity
(And a little bit of insanity).
Peace.
Goodness.
Genuineness.
INTELLIGENCE.

Negative Space in a Postive Place

©2004-2010 ~Mary--jane (www.deviantart.com) (I don't know this person, I just liked the image and decided to share it with you and give her credit for it)


I've been wanting to write about something all day long but have come up with nothing, so let's do some random thoughtpoints (just made that up) on the lately-goings-on-things-of-trivialness...Need to get my nails done, they're way grown out :S  I'm sunburned.  It hurts.  I've had three coffees today.  Well, technically, it was a chai latte and then two coffees.  Oy.  Finally balanced my checkbook register today after *mumble*mumble*garble*garble* weeks of not doing so.  A customer brought me an oversized, ceramic martini glass today, because he thought I'd like it (it shall make for a good weekend when full hehe).  I've really been sucking at working out lately; to tell you the truth, I haven't done so in WEEKS because of everything that's been going on.  Have had a bit of a shift in priorities (thank you headshakers).  I actually own a pair of girl shorts now, as opposed to dude cargos or boardshorts; AND a skort too.  Kinda scary.  Really not looking forward to summer progressing into hotter and hotter weather.  Blegh.  Give me 65 degrees and a breeze.  Or just rain.  Rain would be awesome.  Half runs start tonight for Twelfth.  Yay :).  My hair's about 2 inches long now I think.  Kinda weird.  Miss having shaved head but miss having long hair and miss having huge fro.  Sigh.  One more cup of coffee...

Cut.  Check the gate.  Print it.
Next.

Darkspiration

©2010 =Hart-Worx (found on DeviantArt.com)

I've been listening to a lot of what I would call "tribal-esque" music lately; just some really ...I don't know any other way to describe it than.. moving music.  Stuff that just makes my body start moving almost subconsciously, and sends goosebumps from my scalp down to my calves; stuff that I feel in the pit of my stomach.  That started several weeks ago.  Then it's just sort of slowly spiraled downward and gotten darker and darker.  [This feels like a side note, but it's related]: It's funny because I've never been a Tribal Bellydancer.  I've always done Cabaret style, or some form of Fusion; but Tribal's always been in the back of my mind.  'Course, several years back I called it "ethnic" style; which I would probably describe as very earthy tones, natural costume fibers, etc; I always had a pull towards it, but never really took it up.  I think ever since I saw a dancer at Rakassah this year (Sera Solstice) and promptly started soaking up every video of her dancing I could find, and even started listening to music she dances to, is when the call of the Tribal desire started seeping out.  Then I started looking at various photography on deviantart.com and being pulled towards darker imagery (I post a lot of my pictures on there) the picture above is from there.  And what I mean by 'darker imagery' doesn't mean blood or gore or really fearsome stuff (well, maybe for some) ...just...different.....Then I saw the video for Trent Reznor's "The Space In Between" (How To Destroy Angels).  Oh.  My.  Gosh.  I don't know what it is about it, but it absolutely draws me in.  The video is terrifying but wide-eyed addicting, and the song itself feels like hands pulling me down into a black pool.  Sounds awful, but it's so...enthralling.  So I realize how chaotic this entry might seem; let me try to get to some sort of point...

Listening to this 'darker' side of music (and of myself really) has really inspired me to be a more of a tribal dancer; and with the photography that I've been forging through has just furthered the desire.  And let me clarify something...When I say 'darker,' I don't really mean 'gothic' or 'pessimistic' or any of that 'black like my soul' shit.  This just feels like ... this:

©2009-2010 ~Greyguardian

 An involuntary but accepted pull towards something...different.  And.  Exciting.

Cheers.

On A Positive Note - An Expansion on Happy

Okay, so I was writing one thing, but it was leaning towards the negative and I'd really like this blog to focus on the positive.  Here, why don't we just expand on the title of my blog.
"Happiness and Praise - As Opposed to Complaints and Grievances."
Usually if I go to express thoughts or feelings about something, anything really, whether it's in writing (ie: blog, text, status update) or speech, nine times out of ten it would be negative-based, and I'd want to complain or gripe.  Instead, what I've been trying to get myself to do is react positively and think about the good of whatever bad thing I have experienced or witnessed.  Such as, thismorning, not an hour ago, I was having issues with deleting a program off the computer and I was going to rant and rave and complain about it on the good ol' Book o' Face, but waited for a second, deleted it, and thought of something that made me happy and put that in its place.  If I think one year down the road, or six months, or one month from now, or even just later today, and say to myself, 'Will it really effing matter that a COMPUTER PROGRAM irritated you for TEN MINUTES out of your ENTIRE life??'  Think about it people.  Think about how quickly we jump to stress and irritation and frustration today.  I won't have it anymore!  I just won't have it.  IT'S NOT WORTH IT.  Like, driving.  Yes.  Driving.  Where we all think we're in our own little worlds.  Driving along on the freeway, going at whatever speed you're going at, someone comes up on your ass, or someone cuts you off, or can't maintain a consistent driving speed, or whatever.  It doesn't matter.  Really.  As long as YOU are safe and YOU are in control of you, it doesn't bloody matter.  Just let it go.  Or just any relations with the public as a whole.  People yell and scream at each other, and get angry and blame, and it's just not worth it.  Someone told me, "If everyone in the whole world stopped and laughed for thirty minutes, everyone; guaranteed, there would be no war."  I like that.  We need more happiness and positive things in this world.  Life is SO short.  Think about it!  How insignificant we are in this world.  Enjoy it!  Soak it up!  Milk it for all its worth.  Have FUN.  Be a kid again.  Make an ass of yourself.  Be ridiculous and silly and stupid and embarrassing.  Just enjoy.  Fall down.  Make silly faces.  Sing out loud.  Dance in public.  Speak in funny voices.  Make people laugh.  Make yourself laugh.  Live.

So that's quite like being in the army...

Did you know that pale pink exudes and portrays a calming energy?
Wow, "calming energy."  That's pretty oxymoronic of me now isn't it??
What a lovely way to start a blog!
And awaaaaaaaaaaaaay we go!

So here's me, doing muh thing, bloggin' away.  Haven't done so in a wee bit of awhile.  Golly, I used to blog on myspace CONSTANTLY; but good ol' F-Book does "NOTES" and not "BLOGS" so I blog elsevhere (yes there's a 'v' there on purpose); MUAHAHA.

Today is a jazz/romance/sappy/swing-induced day, and I'm loving it.
We've got a little Michael Buble, Nat King Cole, Norah Jones, Ray Charles, etc. etc. etc. goin' on and it's gooooooooood.

So.  Ah yes, "so."  My prior blog followers are pretty well aware that this word is probably my favorite when it comes to blogs, and the like.  So.  Yes.  And.  Yes and.  I love that.  Do you ever do that?  You're sort of reiterating a point and you say "Yes, AND."  I love that.  It sounds fragmented, but I think it works.

Ooh!  Shall we discuss made up words??  Do, let's!

Epiphanical:  describing a moment of epiphany.

Delurring:  replacement for the word 'delirious'; as in "I'm delurring!"
  (disclaimer:  I actually can't even take credit for this, that would go to Mrs. Jenny Liddle :))

Aaaaaaaand wow I can't think of anything else right now.  Huh.
Look at the kitty! <--yes that's how my brain works

Nnnnnnnnnnnnnnyyyyyyyoooooooooooowwwwwwmmmmmmmm.....
If you didn't catch that, that was the sound of my brain whizzing by.

Ok *cracks knuckles seriously* let's get down to brass tacks (ouch?) (Because I didn't know its origin, I share my findings of the phrase with you)...
In all seriousness now...
My life as of late has been...interesting.  (Can I get an amen sistahs??)
Let's see...keywords to describe my life.
Heavy.
Intense.
Pandemonium?
Superb!
A.  Lot.
Then some.
Confuzzling (ah-ha!  Another made up one!)

But...good...I think.  Hahaha...
Yes it's good, it's just...a lot.