"When the world ends, collect your things, you're coming with me..."

I saw the biggest falling star last night I've ever seen; here follows the event:
Just driving along downtown, taking Tabby home, and right in the middle of the sky, a HUGE shooting star comes streaking down towards Earth.  Without thinking, I brake.  In the middle of the street.  And then I think to myself, 'If the world were to end right now, in the four seconds it looks like it'll take for that to hit us, one, why in the hell am I braking, and two, would I leave this world satisfied with my life?'  Answer to number one:  stupid, simple human reaction.  Answer to number two:  No.  No, definitely not.  What in the hell are we all doing?  Why do we worry about such petty, ridiculous, nonsensical things?  Why must we linger on the sad and the depressing and the frustrating and the unhappy moments??  Why?  Why?  Why?  Why?  Why?  We are all here on this world, but for mere fragments of time!  We are but microscopic particles in the universe.  Time is always ticking away, always, always, always, always, just flowing, flowing, flowing.  So what are you doing?  Where are you?  In this moment, right now, is this what you want to be doing with your life?  Are you making every step of it deliberate??  Are you doing what you love?  Are you working towards a greater goal?  Are you doing what you feel you should be doing?  Do the ones you love know you love them?  Have you told them that?  Tell them.  Tell them all.  Appreciate every single thing.  Be with the people you want to be with.  Do what you love, and do it with all of your heart.

So tell me, what are you going to do with your life today?

Okay...So Now What?

Did I make a mistake?  I don't know.  It might still be too soon to tell.  It probably is.  All I know is that I'm not happy, I'm way too emotional, and there are feelings getting hurt and twisted and going perhaps misunderstood and untreated.  UGH.  Typically, or actually, the last time I was feeling pretty good about things falling into place, which was probably about 3 months ago, I was saying "No regrets..no mistakes.."  But now?  I don't know.  It never fails, when you're in the thick of it and have yet to get to that point where you actually see that "big picture," you definitely feel those choices that put you in whatever place you are today.  Then I just had to go off the beaten path and end up tripping and falling head first into something and it feels like EVERYTHING has gone downhill from there.  I get it, alright?  Bad choice.  But it's done now, and now I'm suffering, as I deserve.