"i remember..."

I take a sip of wine.  It's a cabernet sauvignon.  Pick up my laptop, kick my feet up on the coffee table, sit back, settle in, take a breath.

"You don't have to move on to let go."
(Thanks Kaskade)

Tuned in, turned up, flowing, vascular, active, aware.  Musical.  Movement.

Softness, soft fur.  Paws pad across my belly.

Two mental om's........

So hello.  Welcome to the world of me.  Status update is in order I suppose.  Current location:  friend's couch, friend's apartment, SLO.  Housesitting.  It's rather nice.  Good change of pace.  Plus the weather here is fantastic.  Been taking care of a little pretty kitty, miss furball (who's watching me from the back of the couch).

What all the hell has been going on for me.  People ask me that.  "So, what's new and exciting for you?"  Well, honestly, I guess every day is technically new and exciting.  But let's just go down the list....completed Dreamweaver 2013 a month ago, wow what a fantastic show.  So much talent involved!  And just absolutely rocked our numbers this year.  Plus we made record-time in choreographing a dance.  Three minute dance in 35 minutes.  Seriously.  Record.  Got a few big-ish gigs coming up that we'd like to take part in:  Desert Dance Festival in Santa Clara this September, and SLO Cabaret Belly Dance Festival this October.  Hopefully might actually revive my bellydance class here soon.  Been working out like every day, maybe skipping one or two days a week, but been kicking some major ass.  I think I'm actually, finally, technically smaller than I was in high school, which is like..a lot.  Still 20 pounds away from my goal weight, but I'm working on it.  But when I look back and go "Wow, six years ago I was over 200 pounds," that's pretty cool.  I've definitely not lost it fast, but it's a work in progress.

The day after we closed Dreamweaver I started rehearsals for Mulan, filling my usual place as assistant director extraordinaire.  And the Director and I positively reFUSE to put ourselves in this show.  (In the past we've had to get things together at the last minute because we were short on actors and had to jump into the shows, which actually made me an actor for the first time EVER last year).  We open Mulan in exactly two months (.......oh my god), and it's going pretty well.  I might actually kind of know how to sing by the end of it because I sing along with the actors every time we run the musical numbers (which is like every two pages in the script).  Actually got to sit down at the keyboard and help out during rehearsal, which is funny because I haven't touched a piano in over ten years.  But I can actually read music, which I'm really proud of (and a surprising amount of artists aren't able to).  Makes me want to download sheet music and start teaching myself to play more songs.  Speaking of music...

Oh my god I have been so effing tuned in to music.  I mean, yeah it's me, I always frickin' am.  But like I want to a part of it so much.  I want to go to shows and festivals and have it blaring all around me.

Sigh...sleep.  Sleep evades me.  Again.  I mean, don't get wrong, I'm effing exhausted.  Today is my weekly 20 hour day, and man, it takes it out of me.  Especially driving.  Wears me out.  Which effing scares me because that's how I got in my car accident eight years ago (falling asleep while driving is not pleasant).  Perhaps I will end this here and send myself off to Neverland.  Good night all, thank you for joining me.  And if I don't see you:  good sleep, good rise, and great day.