hallelujah

philosophy over breakfast.  psychology.  sociology.  social psychology.  (ahhh...)  our art.  why we are artists.  trusting our peers.  our surrounding and fellow artists.  being wholesome.  translating/transferring our wholeness into our art.  making the connection.  brain to arm to tool.  mental block.  emotional breakdown.  epiphany!  HARD epiphany.  "duh!!"  complete, total, utter out-of-body, floating/swelling beyond my physical boundaries (skin).  part of the universe and everything.  yes!

bros night

bro-ing out.  bro style.  with the bros.  four bros.  and a baby (sleeping on the couch).
old house.  feels good.  smells old.  smells good.
coffee?  tea!  orange tea!
billiards.  youtube.  dominos.  "Your driver is Ryan."  PIZZA.  brooklyn style.  soda!
"And in heels as well!"
laughs...alright, snorts...
Canadian cue?
..four games of cutthroat.  teams.  scratches.  curved breaks.  wins all around.
i love bros night.

For Me, Deux

I wear makeup because it makes me feel pretty.
I wear those heels because they make me feel sexy.
I wear that shirt because it makes me feel hot.
I give you that smile because it makes me feel beautiful.
This year, my friends, is for me.
Because to better myself for others,
I must be BEST for me.
So here's to you, and you, and you,
And here's to me.
And I say to myself,
'Self, have a hell of a fuckin' good year.'
Amen, sister.

For Me

Raindrops on my face,
My soft Monkey's cheekies,
Mint tea in my Tabby mug,
Warm hands in my fleecies.
Giving out gifts wrapped clumsily by me,
These are a few of my favorite things.
When the fog frights,
When I get weak knees,
When I curse and get mad,
I breathe in the air and stand on top of the world,
And that makes me feel so glad.

La danse poetic

That would I think of you bodes well
And yet..
And yet..
Come!  And away with me!
Wherever for whenever!  Forever!
I know not of what is known by you.
Wouldst thou tell me?
Would I hear it?
I...I know not.
I know my desire, and it is you...
It is you...

"photographs and memories..."

voice.  veins.  skin.  goosebumps.  hair.  guitar.  fingers.  warmth.  smile.  comfort.  sound.  surrounding.  out-of-body.  peace.  love?

"hidey hidey hidey hi..."

love.  look.  tonight.  oms.  cookies.  gin meets tonic.  presents.  presence.  today.  a minute ago.  tomorrow.  the next day.  forever.  right now.  want.  desire.  envelop.  caress.  hold.  deep breath.  sigh.  closed.  content.