2012

Well, let's see if I can sum up this year...
Rang in the new year with an awesome night hike and with a great guy.
Then work.  Lots of work.  Learning a whole bunch of stuff at work.  Pretty much living at work.
Assistant Directing Little Princess, dancing in Dreamweaver.
Working minimum 60 hours a week.
Feeling the strain, in every part of my life, and everything falls apart.
Ttrudging through daily life.
Glimmers of hope and happiness.  A lot of uncertainty.  More heartache.  Again.
"Beating a dead horse." "Attempting the impossible."
Trying.  Trying, trying, trying.
More hope, almost "normal."  Trying...trying...trying...failing, failing, failing...
Then something snaps.
Have a mental breakdown and crying in front of my boss at work.
Then I stop caring.
Final attempt.  Final failure.  And then reiteration of failure.  Thanks ever so much.
And now I'm back into work mode.  I LOVE being at work.  I love being at work because: I'm not alone, I don't have to be home, I can focus on other things.
So here I am, New Year's Eve, back in my mom's house, home alone.  I've got How I Met Your Mother going in the background, not even watching it really.  I'm really tired.  I'm really lonely.  I hate this.  I'm ready for all this to be over and done and gone.  2012, you were alright okay.  You had your highlights, there were some really, really great times.  But I really miss my best friend, and it sucks.  2013, we've gotta get this back, cuz I really need it.  Please.